There's this kid, Paul, who worked in my office as a part-timer for couple of month. He got an offer for a full-time job so he was quitting the job at my office. On his last day of work, after lunch he came to me and said: "guess what, I just bought a ticket to Cali." "huh? what do you mean just bought a ticket?" I looked at him with doubt.  He told me during lunch he was just thinking about that he has a lot of good friends in CA, and he really misses them, so he got online, bought a ticket, and going to CA the next day. 

I was impressed, and jealous. This crazy kid, who was so free-spirited and young, could make a decision like that in flip of a second (it took me a month to plan a one-week trip to CA last year). What made me envy the most was the expression on his face when he was talking about the weather in Cali, the warm breeze, the beach and the good time he's gonna have with his friends, there was no guilt, or fear or any sort of worries on his face for making such a rush decision.  He was relaxed, excited and just looking forward for a good time.  You could almost see the beautiful beaches of California in his eyes already.

I may never be able to do something like that, even when I was at his age.  But in my heart I always dreaded for that kind of spirit, to be able to drop all the worries and the concerns, even people, just release myself to another space, not a cloud in my mind…